had mad idea of having my eyebrows 'threaded' - truly painful - but i suppose it has made my face look better

leaving on tuesday for a classic car rally across spain and already stomach in knots - know this is not the spirit to be embarking on such an adventure but by the time its started i will be up for it

tonight going to a dinner party best friend put me up to knowing that there is a single man that has been singled out for me. my argument that i am back with boyfriend fell on deaf ears as she made clear it was not a date so i was not cheating he knew nothing about me so perfectly fine if i wanted to talk to him about my boyfriend that she just had a hunch and that after all i'd been through last year and a half she wasn't taking no for an answer

meanwhile the boyfriend lost his job - had months to sort it out - he's interviewing now- so i bought him a book and took him to supper to celebrate beginnings and endings and that sort of thing. then i picked a fight. i was tired. luckily we still ended up in bed together. wow. felt really bad for being so impossible.

housemate has her first crush in three years...suddenly she is talkative and nice and asking questions. funny that. can't tell whether this one will work out.same old story of enteprenuer who is workaholic, married to older woman, not happy in relationship, ends up holding my friends hand in cannes during the film festival at parties. she doesn't usually do 'holding hands'. in the past i've described her as a rain cloud on legs (actually it was her brother who did!) so the fact she instantly looks five pounds lighter and is positively chirpy is a big deal. she asked me my thoughts on the married status. i told her it was absolutely crap when married people embarked on affairs making an exuse that they were miserable at home, that if he has young children it is unforgivable - but he is the one who made the committment not her. she had to do what she felt was right. she said it could be that they are just good friends (no kissing happened yet) but that she did have feelings for him. she would like more. i've never known her with a man in the ten years i've known her and in the three we've shared a house no sign of one...so i guess this is kind of a big deal.